Choosing New Thoughts

 

Typos are left to show I'm human. And cuz I'm blogging in 5 minute increments here and there on the run between my many roles. Also because I have stealth dyslexia and don't see them on the white background. I do better with color.

Disclaimer: I am not very good at choosing new thoughts, so I use chat GPT (AKA Georgina, my assistant) to help me reframe the thoughts that distress me or are no longer helpful to my journey.

I shall use my version of Maritza Parra's equation of emotion to help give the context (no affiliation but I did do her university and certification program, wowza! 🤯💥🥳)

C ircumstance

T hought

E motion  

A ction (I prefer awareness since I think more than act.)

R esult (I use reaction because it helpse.to remember that not everything is about me and people have all sorts of reasons for what they do.)

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Mine is THINK, cuz, well, overthinker here. Lent is to be gentle with myself. Sigh. Rephrase. Um, extra thinker... bonus thinker?🤦🏽‍♀️😁

Context: navigating student/teacher dynamics in a class I'm taking.

T: thought -  Am I too much? Stop asking so many questions already 🤦🏽‍♀️ gaaaaaaahhhhhh.

H: heart - vulnerable, empty, cautious, angst

I: inquiry - what else could this mean?

N: need help reframing. Hold space for Georgina's options. ____________________

K: Remind myself that I am ok either way. Silence makes me sad because I feel like I don't have a chance to apologize and fix it. What would I apologize for... Hi, my name is Bex and I am an over-achiever/over-asker. Is that a thing? Yes, yes it's a thing because I am it.

Georgina's suggestion (named after my Grampie George who was unfailingly kind and encouraging to me): Hi, my name is Bex, and I am deeply engaged in learning.

See? Told you she was nice. She's also good at sorting out things. I just copied and pasted everything after the flowers and she figured out what I wanted. 💛💛

She also reminded me that silence can mean stunned appreciation. Thanks Georgina! I never would have gotten there on my own.

Point taken: I recently applied for something and instead of instant approval they told me they'd get back to me in 7-10 business days after a review. Uh-huh. I know a no when I see one. Insert crushing disappointment here. Then about a week later I got a call, was asked two questions, and then got approved for the thing in a way that blew my mind? Is this too vague? I don't mind details but I'm practicing because maybe someday someone will actually read this and I don't want to be overexposed. Lol. Hi, my name is Bex and I live in the land of over. There I am just right. I am only visiting here so please forgive me when I am more than you expect.

I should come with a disclaimer when I sign up for a class. 🤔🤔