Wednesday, July 4, 2012


July is a hard month for me. We lost our first daughter on July 28, 2007, at two years old. She came to us just before she turned a year old, and left us one year and one month later. It was a hard loss, but a final one. Then in July, 2009, our two little foster daughters were adopted by another family, after I had prayed so hard and believed that somehow they would be ours. But it was not to be. They are now 7 and almost 9, and I long with all my heart to know how they are doing. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep, thinking of them and everything I wish I could have done differently.

So to my three beautiful daughters, I love you. I miss you.


  1. I'm sorry for your heart aching right now...sending prayers for comfort. Thank you for sending that verse to me. What a blessing it is that people think of me in their time with God...what else could that be but Him?!

    1. Thanks! As you know, it's hard when no one else remembers... Just a few more days of waiting for you, praying you will have peace no matter what.

  2. I just wanted to say I'm so sorry for your losses. We too had a foster child that we were told we would get to adopt - only we didn't, so my heart breaks for you. It's a pain that not many understand so I just wanted to say that I do.