I received an e-mail a few days ago about a 3 year old girl, A, who needs a foster family. Her mom got pregnant while in prison (remember, I'm in a third world country) and still has 6 years left on her sentence. Kids can stay with their moms up until they are three, then have to be placed elsewhere.
I look at Raccoon who is also 3, and I can feel the mother's anguish. How would you pick a family? How would you know who to trust? It's either a family or a government run orphanage. Can you imagine just handing your child over and maybe never seeing them again?
I can, because I did with N and J. I wonder every day how they are, and I have cried out to God countless times, "Please let them be happy and safe." I have flashbacks just thinking about this situation. I see other people who have heard the same plea remain untouched, but I can't shake it off. I've been there, in that mom's pit of despair.
I wish I could take little A and reassure her mom that she will be loved and cared for, that I would stay in touch. I feel such a burden for A and her mom. Does it matter that I feel some of that mom's pain, when my answer is still no? I'm not sure. The only way I'll feel any relief is to hear that A has a family.
Please pray for little A and her mom, that the right family would come forward quickly.